Hello! I’m Libby Smith (@work_with_libby), an educator and evaluator at the University of Wisconsin – Stout. My work focuses on building equity and accessibility in evaluation through holistic personal growth & embodiment practices.
As evaluators, we love to think that we can analyze our way out of any problem. In Western culture, we hold rational thinking as a supreme value. If we collect enough data, operationally define every construct, and follow a 22-step checklist, we can make anything better. We take the same approach to social justice. We read the books, take the workshops, & pledge to be culturally responsive. This approach, while valuable, is incomplete.
White supremacy lives in our bodies, specifically in our traumatized nervous systems. We have seen significant advances in the scientific understanding of trauma and the need to be trauma-informed in our work. My own perceptions of trauma have been transformed as well. I once thought war veterans and abuse survivors were the only people who experienced trauma. I’ve resisted seeing myself through that lens, minimizing my own life experiences. How could I claim my own trauma when others experience far worse than I do? To claim racial trauma as a white person continues to feel fraught, but I’ve come to understand that our culture of White Supremacy creates a trauma response in all bodies.
Now that I’ve learned that I have a traumatized nervous system, what do I do about it? That brings me to my HOT TIP: Become an observer of your own body. You can begin by simply developing an awareness of how your body reacts to experiences around race. While reading White Fragility by Robin DiAngelo I experienced tightness in my chest. I’ve also noted that I’m more likely to become distracted when reading this book, I feel compelled to step away. Both are signs of a distressed nervous system. This book requires me to confront the ways I am complicit in racism and my body responds.
Simply learning about white fragility will not heal my nervous system though. I have discovered several embodiment practices that have helped me, primarily breathwork. However, there are many forms of somatic healing that can soothe and strengthen our nervous system, and with intention, address our white fragility. This individual level healing is critical to our ability to do culturally responsive evaluation. We can’t simply think our way out of White Supremacy. We must let go of our thought worship and begin the work of embodied racial healing. Healing practices create new neural pathways that will allow us to react and respond differently in the future.
Resmaa Menakem’s My Grandmother’s Hands: Racialized Trauma and the Pathway to Mending Our Hearts and Bodies provides historical insight on racial trauma in American culture and practical advice on how we can heal. Listen to him on The NWI Podcast.
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